assalamualaikum readers ! :)


this year , this raya , i feel sad . you want to know why ?
my lovely grandmother passed away on 1st April , my eldest's brother went to Kelantan , his wife's home for 1 weeks and my second's brother at Australia , studying there for 2 years . so this raya without them . seriusly , i cant accept this yet :/ .
 for whole my life , every year , every raya , i've always with them and never seperated yet but this year ? omagaddddd . im for sure , this raya , i will miss them and sad . and also , i will feel like 'missing' . 
last night , my brother and his wife's are get ready went to Kelantan , before they go , he wakes me up first . actually , aku tak tidur pon lagi . just pretending . err , aku sengaja tak tidur sbb nak tunggu dia balik kelantan baru aku boleh tidur . sbb nak tengok muka dia and his wife's dulu . time tuh 2am . my bro salam my mom and mintak maaf semua , his wife pun . and my bro salam aku , ayah , abg ketiga . then he gave me duit raya .   
    for sure time salam , my mom cried . i feel like want to cry too but ... i just cant . tak nak nngis depan dorang semua but seriusly , aku tak tahan . and yeah , aku tgk abg aku pon like wanted to cry . eh of course lah babe , this is our first time raya without him . selalunya time raya , all  my family will complete one by one .
but , nak buat mcm mana , tak kan nak halang dia balik kelantan kot , bini dia pon ada family kann . hmm , aku touching sikit bila dia ckp 1 weeks kat sana but nahhhhhh . lama lama nanti , aku biasalah tuh . so ignore me kay bro ? just want to say , selamat hari raya aidil fitri maaf zahir dan batin :') from your sister's , farah <3